Happey-ness is...

Happiness runs in a circular motion
Thought is like a little boat upon the sea
Everybody is a part of everything anyway
You can have everything if you let yourself be...

This tune suddenly popped up in my head out of nowhere. I'm suddenly reminded of my Kindergarten days when everything was just simple, fun, and carefree. When my only problems were which crayon to use to make a tree look like a tree, memorizing my ABCs, and trying to keep quiet when nap time comes. No bills to worry about, no love life to brood over, no guilty conscience nagging at the back of my head about inconsequential issues: just a clean slate with this uncontrollable excitement of filling it up with whatever stuff that cropped up in my head. Can’t say that I like what I’m seeing in my slate right now, but it’s too early to tell. I’m not even halfway there, yet.

What I don’t miss at all is drawing those squiggly loops across the blue and red lines. That's a memory I can't seem to forget because my teacher kept on "insisting" I write with my right hand when I'm naturally inclined to use my left, which warranted me an extra hour on the table while the other kids were already across the room seated on the floor as our dear teacher read them a story before nappy time. I just hope that incident didn't cause any psychological instability inside my head. But it’s too late now, is it not? Harhar.

Now, why the nostalgia? I have no freaking idea. I think this tune was trying to remind me to get back into focus. Keep things simple. Don’t overanalyze. Whatever I’m going through right now is supposed to be like it is, just row the boat and try not to topple over. And I don’t even know what that means.

So yes, it is better that I not overanalyze. It’ll just make me go crazy. I’ll just focus on the goal, one day at a time, and yet peering across the horizon so as not to lose sight of the goal. I can see it now, and I’m no Superman but I can see it clearly right across from a thousand miles away. Okay maybe a hundred. See? I got back my positivity.

Right now, I’m satisfying my little spurts of joy. In two weeks time I’ll be making a kinda major decision (since it concerns a hefty bulk of my monthly salary). What can I say, gadgets make me go blind. And I go along with my tekkie generation to the hilt, as much as I can manage. I’m a material girl, so sue me. Girls just want to have fun.

Oh God, I’m gonna get broke in two weeks.